Losing Honesty

This gloomy wet afternoon, I remembered my Livejournal blog. I had it for more than 2 years, enough reason for me to miss it.

But what really makes me miss it all the more is the sense of honesty. Reading the entries, I can feel my growth, my pain, my confusion, my love, and, most of all, myself. It’s not that I am not myself here in Squeezing the Lemon. It’s just that I sometimes feel the disconnect. Perhaps I’m tired. Or perhaps I’m boxed in certain self-expectations.

I still don’t know yet how to bring back honesty. After all, they say that you dont’ demand it. You allow it to happen. Maybe I’ll just wait, when I feel vulnerable, more open, and more raw.


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